down the rabbit hole of fear

Vision or dream in the bathtub after a spectacularly frustrating couple of days…Ow.Ow!That doesn’t feel good.Does it hurt?  (Higher Self)Yes.Was it meant to hurt?I don’t know.Could it be something else?Maybe…Is this new hurt or old hurt?I...

full circle and rites of passage

Apparently I am being given a new role in my journey- to become a death and dying companion.  Companion for both the one whose life is ending, and for the ones who still remain living and grieving.  One close friend wants to help me train to be a death...

morning thoughts about being heard

Morning thoughts after a turbulent week.It seems if I maintain and keep with quiet reflective time, I stay more balanced and grounded.  If I don’t, I get overwhelmed easier and don’t have the awareness to go back into calm in the moment.If my brain is...

spiritual tantrum

I’ve been struggling for answersa clearer path, a simpler way.I have longed for and asked for this.Please show me what I need to know.”I’m showing you.”  (higher self)I don’t understand.”Be still.  I’m trying to...

like a broken gift

Tonight I wish I could paint.  I don’t even have supplies.Even still, I wouldn’t know how to capture this vision.I am standing, naked, vulnerable,holding my pieces, trying to cover myself.My skin is peeling open, my star bits are showing through.My...

dirt musings, thinking about big things

spontaneous musings while sitting in the dirt, weeding.Struggling to make sense of all the changes, internally and externally.So much to process.Memo alert!!!  New info coming in!What do I do with it?I don’t know.It’s important!Yes, It’s all...