Charmed. Thinking about all the ways I have been blessed and never really acknowledged it.
By all accounts, I should not be alive. Here I am, only 1 car wreck (fender bender between two cars at an almost stop). Despite the odds, I am sane, sober, and healthy. Despite the odds, I am a mom. Despite the odds, I am healing my life and becoming a healer. Despite the odds, I am creative, resourceful, determined.
Despite growing up with abusive parents, some of which were alcoholics, or druggies and in and out of rehab… despite the violence, I managed to keep a pure heart.
There have always been good people in my life to look after me, protect me, believe in me. Looking back, I must have also had guides and angels, or I wouldn’t be here. Thank you.
13 places I have lived were my first choice, even if I was low on the waiting list (dorm rooms, apartments, houses…) I still got the places I wanted to be in. Many of them had clotheslines and a small place for hammock and tiny garden.
I can stop watches, make lights go out, read people with psychic abilities, accomplish things like magic. It must be when I am in flow, when I really believe it, and don’t doubt that I deserve it, then magic happens. I know it’s not just because of me, but I am part of it.
I can say or write things with purpose, and it happens.
So… I deserve to be free of debt. We all deserve that.
I deserve abundance, a place to live, a place I’ve always dreamed of, in nature. I deserve to received lots of money/inheritance/investment/gift/grants, as well as earn good money. I deserve somebody who believes in me and a healing center in nature. The universe knows that people on Gaia need this.
Do I need a partner to help me with this? Or do it on my own? Will a stranger help? I’m not sure yet. Either way, I need to know and believe I want this, dream of this, desire and deserve this.