I’ve been struggling for answers
a clearer path, a simpler way.
I have longed for and asked for this.
Please show me what I need to know.
“I’m showing you.” (higher self)
I don’t understand.
“Be still. I’m trying to explain” (higher self)
This doesn’t make any sense!!
“It will. Hold on. I’m showing you.”
This is frustrating! I hate it!
“Stop screaming and thrashing!
I am trying to show you gentler answers!”
Me- throwing symbolic tantrum,
like a cat being stuffed into a cat carrier,
claws gripping doorways, hissing,
clawing things.
“Are you done now?”
Me- glaring, panting, fingers white
from trying to grip anything, everything,
hair tangled, sweaty frenzy…
“Are you ready to listen now?
I’m trying to show you a simpler way!”
Me- pouting. I guess so. If I have to.
“Oh my gawd!” (higher self rolls her eyes)
Sometimes we fight each other.
It’s immature.
I’m still learning.
Being human is not easy.